~animegirl0

there’s so much more to life then this. Has life half passed me by already?
Sometimes life is harder then death. Sometimes moving forward is more difficult then being content where we are… but the truth is I have wasted so much time, doing what? Where did it all go? And for what? Is there a greater purpose for the things I place my time in? Where your treasure is… there your heart will be also… where have I placed my stock, in what sort of buildings have I invested my time in creating… Who is it my life has impacted? And in what way?

Today is my birthday, a day to ponder over life, but to every life there is also death. When my tomb stone reads 2/9/1989 – x/x/xxxx what will that dash represent? For my life to be lived to the full, I must die to myself. But what does that look like? How do I know my desires from God's desires?

I ask myself this because I want to go somewhere, for some reason, and this is hard to share with people because this place is not close, and the reason not always understand, and the time it takes up is nearly 3 months… but is this my will alone?

Some other thoughts… the marionette painting is back in progress… I’m trying something new w/ the arms. If it turns out it’s all to Gods glory not mine. Also, I’ve been asked how much I charge to draw a portrait… I have no idea where to begin pricing my art… or if I even should. Perhaps the proceeds could go to the trip mentioned above. Oh and Make a Wish seemed to enjoy their painting, which was nice to hear.

Still praying about art school @_@


Take care everyone

~Amber